Now I believe..

Now I understand how it feels to hurt, to miss the person you love most. Not knowing what to do, I just don't even want to think about how far away we are because it just makes me want to cry. Not having you by my side is like missing a part of me. You're like my sister, and I hate not having you by me side. You've been there in the worst moments, and so have I. We've known each other since we were 3 years old, that's about 12 years! I know i'm going to see you again, because if I don't I will pretty much kill myself. From kindergarden where we first met, to the food fights in the middle of the night we would have with your sister, and crazy nights at the beach like when we lost your mom's license. Things I will never remember, because cheerleading, soccer, softball, all of that was nothing without you, because everything was always better with you. You will always be my best fuck buddie haha, and even if I don't go this year or you don't come next year, I wont ever forget you. I'm sorry for everytime we would fight, and i'm sorry for not being there when you needed me the most, even though it wasn't my fault because I was here, I still felt like shit because you needed me and I could be there. ): I didn't know what to do. Now it's been so long and you have your friends and I have mine. But don't ever forget what i'm telling you, because when i'm 18 and I'll be able to do whatever I want, we're gunna live together and I promise everything is gunna be like it use to be. U.U I love you, and I miss you more then anybody can, and you know it's so true. I swear I can't stop holding back these tears because the're breaking me apart. I hope i'll see you soon.